I WANTED

i wanted to have a girl just like me and just for me
i wanted to not wear glasses anymore
i wanted to have friends and go out and socialize
i wanted to travel
i wanted to feel loved
i wanted to have a job i liked
i wanted to live in japan
i wanted to have my own land
i wanted to have a real family
i wanted to be touched without end
i wanted to be independent
i wanted to have someone who could understand me that i could trust to be with and talk to
i wanted to not feel discomfort and pain and bleed from my intestines
i wanted to not be alone
i wanted to leave this house
i wanted to not have to deal with evil people who ruin everything and everyone's lives
i wanted to have pets
i wanted to have a peaceful life
i wanted to lose fat and gain muscle
i wanted to be able to go to bed and fall asleep quickly
i wanted to have a busy life
i wanted to have no physical defects
i wanted to not be poor
i wanted to get married at age 21
i wanted to have 3 babies
i wanted to not be abandoned
i wanted to forget
i wanted to get rid of the hurricane of emotions inside me
i wanted to get rid of my severe mental illnesses
i wanted to be taken seriously
i wanted to know why i'm still alive
i wanted to know how to get out of this world and never come back
i wanted to find true love and have a dream life come true i can't even imagine
i wanted to become a better person
i wanted to die