Shepherds of Humanity

There is nothing new here. 

I was wrong before, and I'm still wrong now.

Nothing I write is unbelievable, considering where we are.

Of all the lower and higher Mysteries, the question Why?, is the most important of all.

When a person tries to explain something, it loses value.

All questions can be asked, but some will never have an answer.

What must be understood is on a personal level.

There are 3 levels of Understanding, each harder to reach than the previous.

When dealing with the Mysteries, keep it to yourself.

The time of birth and death cannot be changed, but you can choose how to live.

When you reach a certain stage in your development, you can never go back.

The feeling of needing to write doesn't happen often enough anymore.

Truth exists, and it's inevitable.

I've read a lot of creation and flood stories from all over the world, and it usually involves sin, incest, animals, serpent/dragon/fish, running to mountain tops, floating on boats/large objects, weeks or months of rain and flood, the death of all people except a select few, the death of almost all animals, because very bad things happened and this place needed to be reset to restart from good, a few people who survive and repopulate, life becoming very hard, teachers of the arts appear and guide humanity, a savior appearing with revelations and telling humanity how to end their suffering, the development of civilizations, and eventually the point in time where we're at now.

These stories have different names and places, but the same patterns, why?

Because they really happened?

Because they were told and written by the same people?

Because it's deep inside us?

Because there's a higher force interested in making it happen?

This is done through religions, and I don't just mean organized religions, governments, societies, corporations, schools, television channels, websites, et cetera, and their popular names, but the smaller ones as well, and then individual ones, since everything a person believes in is their religion, everyone is religious, everything is about religion.
I have the feeling, everything is repeating itself, that this is not the 1st time humanity existed, or life as we know it, even technology and civilizations, since everything that is, is on the mind 1st, and made happen 2nd.

In every source I find there's always the same elements and lack of answers, a diluted and ommited story about the creation, who and what was involved, using who and whatever was available in that region, what happened after, some figure that rises and teaches a civilization arts, sciences, creation knowledge, all the religions which become popular, and how it becomes more modern history than anything of interest, more of the same and worse and more of it until it's our age and it's almost worthless to speak of.

If there were, or are, these savior figures, if people are right, if they know the answers, then why are we still here?

Weren't we supposed to be saved from suffering by now?

Yet people keep being born, and told they have to live, believe, and do, this or that, because previous people did the same?

Why?

It goes on, generation after generation, it doesn't end!

I say sex is a 2nd opportunity to fulfill the purpose to which all souls are born in humans bodies, in this place, and have to experience being human, born in ignorance, having to suffer, and all kinds of difficulties, until they achieve the purpose of human life and go to a better place.

I also say sex is the 2nd worst thing there is, because it's a tremendously perverse ritual, and it keeps causing all suffering.

The feeling of needing sex, and to make babies, comes from lack of answers, and control, which leads to wrong doing, evil, fear of death, and severe consequences some of which can be soon felt and observed in many ways, others still mysterious to me.

How do I explain this, everything people believe in was passed on to them by others in many ways, or through the mind, with some very hard to find Truth, there has to be some Truth in it to captivate people at a deep level which they're not aware of, presented with wrong interpretations, wrong translations, and lies, for some reason, but all of these religions are variations of the same story, and none of them reveal what really happened in the beginning, and that's what I want to know, the whole story.

But I'm coming to realize, it cannot be found, not as a book, story, experience, that it's not even possible to know as a human, or ever.

How can you know these texts and books that someone wrote are true, if you weren't there at the beginning to verify it?

I know people answer the question about who wrote these things by saying it came from an entity talking to them, a being, appeared inside their heads, or came from the first humans, but if that's true, then why is everything we get always the words of someone, translated by someone else, and published by another someone? 

These savior figures from religions, and in our time even movies, books, games, politics, governments, wars, et cetera, are all far lesser copies of the original savior, of which I don't know the name of.

I believe these popular names, symbols, rituals, promoted by all kinds of people, and religions, since ancient times are not the real ones, or even important.

There is a pattern here, like in all aspects of humanity, but what's the purpose of it being presented with errors?

You'd think everyone would have access to the same words from these first entities, beings, humans, mental communications, it should be written in indestructible stone, or on the sky for everyone to see, yet no.

There is proof that other civilizations existed before our recorded history, before these last few thousands of years.

Not only all human history but proof of their presence as well were probably destroyed before, and will be destroyed again with cataclysms.

Humanity growing so much and so fast, now it makes more sense to me it happened several times.

I wonder how humanity will be destroyed for the next reset, if this is true, with such capabilities increasing for surviving, it would probably be related to what this place is, and I still don't know the real answer to that, so anything is possible.

The invisible is always in operation, but humans cannot see it, yet it becomes obvious enough that it's there, everywhere, in everything, always.

I'm starting to believe everything is neither billions nor a few thousands of years old, and everything that happened these past few thousands of years, until our time, happened not just once, but that everything except for creation happened several times, in resets, or ages, of humanity, celestial and world events.

How could the first man and woman be cursed with all evils and sufferings upon their families, if they were the only 2 humans who existed?

Who said they were going to have sex and we would be born?

No suffering would fall upon anyone if they didn't have sex.

Obviously we aren't told what really happened in the beginning.

This is not about believing in sides, those are fabricated to divide and control the people.

I know that these famous names are all fabricated teachers of humanity, worshipped, venerated, followed, adored, believed, but these are not what they seem, doesn't matter how many billions of people believe it, these pretender figures are only there from time to time, and place to place, because those behind them and behind religions receive or have access to the Truth somehow, and use these figures to steer humanity into one direction or another, and it's incredibly difficult for me to fully understand and therefore also explain why these hidden ones do what they do in the way they do, because all we get is what they want us to believe.

Instead these pretenders are used, the same story keeps being told in different ways, and these religions are formed.

That means all these things people are told to believe in are lies, with some Truth mixed in there, because Truth is never shared in its original form.

I wonder why.

Over these long years, I've grown so tired of being stuck in life, this house, being alone, and the Mysteries I can't stop thinking about, I only initiated myself into the Mysteries because I started asking myself why did I deserve to suffer so much, and still I don't have the most important answers, all of this has taken a big toll on me as a person, and also on my health.

When does it end?

Watching this video on Youtube helps understand many Mysteries.

The Reality of Humanity

Slaves believe and obey, this is my simplest way to describe slavery, belief and obedience makes people slaves.

Slaves compose all the levels on the pyramid of slavery called society, everywhere and all the time, be it the few at the top, or the billions at the bottom, in many ways, but certainly, all are slaves.

Slaves consume everything that is promoted to them, food, drink, word, thought, to be and do all that is wrong and immoral, is the way of the slaves.

Slaves worship the fabricated entities of their masters by their many names, in many ways, and it's not because they don't know, or have a different belief, that they are not slaves.

Slaves consent to be vaccinated, controlled, like animals trained by fear, lies, and violence, weakening, surrendering, receiving disease, mutations, nanotechnology, to destroy their health, d.n.a., and free will, more and more with each generation, but no vaccine will ever make people less slaves. 

Slaves do not understand or accept they are slaves, believing to be free, making them the perfect slaves.

Slaves to authority that they don't have, money that doesn't exist, pleasure that turns to pain, substances which destroy health, violence which never helps, lies accepted as truth, sex the cause of all suffering, fear which keeps them in check, competing to see who is more stupid, these are humans, these are slaves.

Slaves are volunteers, afraid to be free, not even knowing what freedom is, they go to school, have jobs, bank accounts, pay taxes, bills, go to church, get married, give birth, join societies, watch television, read magazines, vote, obey laws, brand themselves, obtain documents, buy everything from others, et cetera, what they call normal life, because they choose to, so they cannot complain, because there cannot be masters without slaves.

Slaves perform the sex ritual, and from it another body with a soul is born into the system of slavery, be it the first time, or reincarnation if there really is such a thing, that newborn soul becomes truly human in a few years, just like the other slaves.

Slaves fight all wars, for they will never be fought by their masters who control their perception, only by the multitudes of slaves.

Slaves are the ones the fabricated events are made for, without the slaves these events would not happen and become reality, deserved is the blame, along with the pain, everything bad that happens in this place, is of, by, and for the slaves.

Slaves by the billions alive today are the most ignorant, evil, stupid, lying, greedy, offensive, disgusting, hateful, humans who ever lived, because they are the furthest from the beginning of everything, how unbearable and powerless and infuriating it is to carry this weight, to think, to know, that our situation will not get better, already the next generation being made of even worse slaves.

Slaves continue to be born, innocent as babies, but from the evil of others, every day, every hour, every minute, without end, and for as long as they are born, there will be slaves.

Think for Yourself

The further you are from Truth, the more it hurts you.

There are more Pan worshippers today than ever, with this fabricated event called pandemic, people living in panic for no reason, accepting these fake panacea which only hurts them, people's perceptions have never been easier to control with modern technology, fear, violence, and lies. There's no difference between Pan, Baphomet, Satan, Lucifer, et cetera, different names for the same fabricated entity as known to the public. Chaos, homosexuality, obedience, sun worship, human worship, sex, money, government, organized religion, hate, lies, stupidity, satanism, control, everything that is promoted to the people by those who control their perception is to hide Truth and corrupt with lies, it's not by accident, mistake, some random chance, that the world is always in chaos, it is fabricated, all world events are, be them financial crisis, terrorism, scandals, politics, ufos, sports, religious, even weather, these events are fabricated for the people to pay attention to them and make them real, promote them, make them grow, control people's beliefs, manipulate them to fulfill evil plans, keep them from that which is important and they'll never even realize it with all these distractions, none of this could happen without the people who believe and obey, slaves, zombies, dead. How easy it is today to make billions of people worship the gods of the ancient secret societies, which are religions, whose members don't understand the Mysteries even so strongly believing they do, that they do anything and everything to control everyone and everything they can, which is what this is all about, evil wants to control, Good wants to set Free. The billions of lost souls stuck in this place might as well say they're working for, and worshipping, these same kind and equals standing at upper levels in the pyramid of slavery which they call society, because that's exactly what they do and what reality is. These most evil people have the knowledge of how to manipulate the people into doing what they want, more than they have ancient knowledge, which is not about controlling people, but by erasing history, and making people believe what they want, it makes it unbelievably hard for people to know why they are here, and the answers to the other Mysteries. There's absolutely nothing and no person good in this place, and the longer humanity lives, the worse it'll get. Sides are created to divide and use people's feelings to make them join a cause they should never be involved with, and war against each other, until so much blood has been spilled, so many lives have been sacrificed, that people accept whatever solution from the puppets of their masters, these useless idiots, promoters, influencers, celebrities, priests, politicians, billionaires, who reach the people who don't even understand they feed these monsters, and receive their perception through television, websites, apps, newspapers, magazines, schools. Slaves believe and obey, that is the simplest way I can describe slavery. Billions of people alive right now are slaves, to government, banks, sexual feelings, drugs, religious beliefs, the internet, computer games, escapism, self hate, labels, jobs, immoral behavior, you name it. People are born into the system of slavery, they receive a name, a number, blood is removed from them, their fingerprints are taken, they get a birth certificate, a citizen card, vaccines which are harmful and unnecessary, they grow believing what they're told, they are labeled, they joing groups, accept a way of thinking among the many that were fabricated for them, doesn't matter what name you give it, they are not there to help, police will keep people in check and afraid, debt will be created, taxes to the puppets who work for the slave masters must be paid, school lies must be accepted as fact and regurgitated to pass tests and move on, those who think for themselves will be ridiculed and attacked for it, the slave will be told how to be the perfect slave with further education, how slaves must think and feel and act is promoted to them constantly bombarding them with group thinking, laws, what is expected of you, what parents who know nothing want their children to be, all of this and more keeping the system of slavery alive and well, while those who never show their faces manipulate this human farm as they please, through their means of communication which reach billions, and captures their attention. One needs only to be sent to a public school or sit in front of a television to become a zombie. Together with all the aspects of control, people are born, grow up, live normal lives, and die, without ever realizing they were slaves, and then to make things worse they want babies, and the suffering never ends, the war never ends, the hate never ends, the pain never ends, the problems never end, the sacrifice never ends, the slavery never ends. Wherever people are that's the worst place to be. Every day people keep themselves from realizing what is important, what they must do to end all suffering, what Truth is, imitating the previous generation, keeping themselves the same kind and the ones who preceded them and only made life worse. Eating processed and fake foods and drinks which make them sick, violent, and stupid, get addicted to them like they're drugs, without a moral education they do whatever they want and ruin themselves and others with stupid behavior, drugs, sex, belief in lies, hate, joining groups which are against others, hurting others by being offensive, joining wars, campaigns of destruction, believing the religion of the area you were born in, or your family, shaping you into one of them when it's not you, but who others want you to be, it doesn't matter which side you choose, because it's always the wrong side, all sides are fabricated to make people war against each other and control the outcome. One individual cannot go back to being innocent as a child because they lived by doing and accepting that which is immoral, wrong, bad, evil, so generations after generations will not only make the same mistakes but as people increase in number, so will all problems, the hunger, the diseases, the control, the hate, the stupidity, the governments, the organized religions, the slavery which is the human condition, and they only get worse, and the people are the ones to blame, everyone who does anything wrong, the individual, who can always stop what they're doing wrong and correct the situation, their lives, help others, and keep doing what is right, that will always help and improve the situation, the struggle, life, and make it easier for others as well. You don't have to be aware, or understand, or accept something for it to affect you, everyone especially from the most populated countries suffers from what is imposed to them by others every day of their lives, unless they get away from everyone and everything to live the simple life and deal with the Mysteries on their own until their time is over, which is what human life should be like or so I believe, after you die there's nothing you can do to save yourself from another life time of being born, forgetting, and more suffering. I can say that reading ancient books or texts helps, the older the better, but one must first gain a certain level of Understanding and development, to separate that which is right, from that which is wrong. It takes many years and much research to initiate yourself into the Mysteries, and start to realize what this is all about, and this can only be done by you, and for you, or it might never happen during one human life time, and that's where the source of all suffering, sex, has its sinful purpose. The hardest part comes after that invisible barrier, and there's nothing more complicated or unbelievable. If you don't know what you're searching for, you'll only find what you don't need, and believe it to be what it's not. Everyone will be guided to the Inevitable, either the hard way, or the most painful way, not even death will save anyone, and there's no escaping it. Say No to control, say No to obedience, say Yes to Freedom, say Yes to choice, only you can do it, if not then fail and come back for more hell. This is more complicated than it seems. As far as I know there's only one way to end the struggle and escape, the correct way.

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Between Body and Mind

 

This time I write it. 

While I was trying to sleep, something came to my head while in bed at night, in the dark, with my eyes closed, I wasn't sleeping, the darkness opened in the middle and I could see close, there was a flat surface, maybe a table, I was mostly above it, 2 or 3 stacks of papers with maybe a few words and long kind of simple drawings, these papers then started being removed from the top of each stack at a crazy speed, maybe some rectangular papers moved sideways, and I was looking at them while they were being removed, so close I could see few words and mostly simple long shapes or lines on those papers but not read them, I don't know what was drawn either, or why I saw them through that tunnel of darkness, which soon after closed and I was still in the same position, in the dark, but this has happened recently. Was I seeing something between being awake and asleep somehow?

On other occasions it was something else I saw, but these experiences go away quick. When I close my eyes and try to imagine something in great detail, it vanishes after a while. Other experiences were forgotten because I didn't feel the need to write them.

Imagination I don't believe this is, but something else, imagination never has the detail and closeness of this experience that I don't know exactly what name to give it, what felt like a connection to it, not by my choice.

The gif image above the text, is similar to the tunnel that opened inside my head when this experience happened, but the real one felt a bit wider and there were no lines.

Makes me wonder how much of a connection is possible to establish with the mind, what it really is, and how can I connect to it, while I believe there's the possibility of connecting to the mind in an almost unbelievable way, to see and discover beyond that which the common daily human sensorial experiences limit me to, I don't know how. This really isn't something coherent enough to properly write about. 

I only wrote this experience because of the feeling it gave me, it came to me! 

Nothing for me here

There are important things i want to do, but i don't have a person to help me, in fact my family is almost completely gone, and i have no friends anywhere, being alone is the best i can do now, because everyone around me is dead inside. I've never been so close to knowing why i'm here, how i came here, when i came here, what i am, and where i am, yet i still don't know how to escape this world and never come back. I am alone everywhere i am, because no one else understands why they are here. People are infected with slavery, they are not my kind. This world is filled with evil, it needs another flood. There's nothing for me here, i simply am still alive. I want to go away, and never come back.

No Closure

nozomi varekova

To the Ones leaving without saying Goodbye


For too long have I struggled to find a meaning for writing and ending this, to say these last words, and now, after 6 years and almost 2 weeks of your disappearance, the last person I called "friend", you never gave me closure, so over time I've written my memories about you, and what happened to me as well, in this blog many times in the past, so many I had to delete some, and now that I have expressed everything about you, I cannot feel a justification anymore, because after this there's nothing else to write.

You dumped your suffering on me, pretending to be a victim, got closer, lied to me, and later disappeared without even saying goodbye, leaving me restless without sleep for months in pain not knowing what happened to you, and I could never be the same person, it's because of you I developed B.P.D., it's because of you I started hating people, it's because of you I can't have friends, it's because of you I can't sleep well, for all that and more I hate you Nozomi Varekova, liar, traitor, you deserve to be abandoned by the person you desire to be with the most, without even a goodbye, and live in misery, filled with loneliness and regret, crying and hurting without knowing what happened, having health problems and insomnia, without resting well ever again, without job or car, friends or fun, hated because you are a failure, not being able to die or feel better, until nothing interests you anymore, waking up hopeless living the same day everyday, for no reason, and everything you feel dies inside you, like what happened to me against my will. You deserve to suffer without end, like me. This is how you will be remembered Nozomi Varekova, liar, traitor, but because this is hell there will never be justice, you'll never know why I wanted to be with you so much, and why my hate for you will only disappear when I die. You are the reason why I started hating people. You owe me all the suffering I've had to live with since your disappearance during the 3rd week of February in 2014. I hate you Nozomi Varekova, and I'll do what you never did, which is to say, goodbye. 

My choice?

23 of April 2018

This is the day i hate the most, yet i did nothing different, spent it alone day and night, like usual.
I can't stop thinking what will happen once my mother dies, and i have to live completely alone, when i don't even have a job, a friend, a social life, no will to live, i can't feel happiness or joy, i can't stand being around people because they're so immoral, disgusting, gullible, ignorant, and there's so many things i hate and have to stay away from.
All i am is a burden, a shadow, a failure.
No wonder i've always been alone, and nothing good ever happened to me, i was born to suffer.
So, another year completed here, in hell.
"Happy birthday", they say?
That's because they haven't suffered enough pain and misery yet, to realize what they are, and where they are, so that they finaly want to get out of here.
What sin did i commit, to deserve this most cruel punishment, of being forced to live in this world against my will?