Unbearable

Stuck in the past, having difficulty breathing, shocked by watching the dog die in misery today and carrying his cold dead body to his grave, being in silence having absolutely no contact with anyone outside this house, feeling pain and distress every day, going hungry and cold and weak because my brain feels heavy and clouded from not having any social life of any kind, not being touched by anyone, not having one person to talk to, not having anything to do, not having a job, not being able to be around people for too long, i can't rest, i can't sleep, i feel desperate, feeling like i'm being tortured is what it feels to be alive to me! I want to die right now, because i can't handle living like this for much longer. I'm so dead inside, i'm about to lose the strenght to move.💔😭As i'm dying here, i only wish i had one person who loved me. It's not worth being alive like this!!