Nothing for me here

There are important things i want to do, but i don't have a person to help me, in fact my family is almost completely gone, and i have no friends anywhere, being alone is the best i can do now, because everyone around me is dead inside. I've never been so close to knowing why i'm here, how i came here, when i came here, what i am, and where i am, yet i still don't know how to escape this world and never come back. I am alone everywhere i am, because no one else understands why they are here. People are infected with slavery, they are not my kind. This world is filled with evil, it needs another flood. There's nothing for me here, i simply am still alive. I want to go away, and never come back.

"I Want To Be Alone"

Jackson C. Frank - ''I Want To Be Alone (Dialogue)'' [Electroma]

I, want to be alone
I need to touch each stone
face the grave that I have grown,
I want to be alone.

Before all the days are gone
and darker walls are bent and torn,
to pass the time of those who won
I want to be alone.

Rivers that run anywhere
are in my hand and just up the stairs
past the eyes of those who care
who can never be alone.

Changes where not ment to be 
told the hours of my memory.
Sing a song of the love to me
to say you must never never be alone

But tears of a silent rain
seek shelter on my broken pane
and run away but I remain
to speak the words 
that sing alone. 

I, want to be alone
I need to touch each stone
face the grave that I have grown,
I want to be alone.

Final scene from the movie "Electroma'' (2006) directed by Daft Punk. 
Distributed by Daft Arts / Wild Bunch.

Music: Jackson C. Frank - "I Want To Be Alone (Dialogue)" from the album ''Jackson C. Frank'' released by Columbia in 1965

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better to die alone, than live a lie

Day of the Week and its Planet - 6 - Friday - Venus

"Being threatened, hated, abused, ignored, degraded, and blamed for problems i did not create, by the people who live in the same house i do, or people who don't even know who i am, feeling stress and anxiety and discomfort basically every day, and having nowhere else to go live to, no support, and no help from anyone, how am i supposed to make my life better and stop suffering?"

 

 

Day of the Week and its Planet - 5 - Thursday - Jupiter

"After i lost my will to live 4 years ago, the food doesn't taste the same, the air is always heavy, the body is always tired, and the mind just won't turn the f#ck off and let me rest for 1 single day, so everything i do is a chore, everything fails, everything is difficult, i can't stand being constantly forced to do something i know in advance will end up hurting me, or just to stay alive, and to make it much worse, loneliness, depression, and trauma make sure i can only handle my miserable life by being isolated at home!"

 

 

Day of the Week and its Planet - 4 - Wednesday - Mercury

"I truly care and i try hard, but Life always ends up making me realize i am cursed to be alone forever, because if i don't initiate a conversation then not even one person ever talks to me or remembers me, and i always end up being forgotten or abandoned once i stop giving attention, so i feel no joy in being alive, no happiness, no good feelings, receive nothing good from anyone, can't even accept them anymore, have no will to try again, don't know what to do anymore, all i keep seeing in my future is a slow, miserable, and painful death, which i never wanted, and what did i do to deserve it?"

 

 

 

I need Love too!

"Humm... i adore the warmth of your body!"

I need constant communication.
I want to be with someone all the time.
I want to know that someone is listening to me.
Being ignored hurts so bad.

I don't want to be alone anymore!

I want to be together, feel her warmth, eat with her, cuddle, hug, hold hands, kiss, fall asleep next to her, and all those things i never had, and still don't even understand what it is or how it feels like!
It hurts that no one has time for me, and i always have time, and yet, i always end up being alone.
I get sad.
So sad...
I want someone to be with me as much as possible.
Alone, all i feel is pain, and i always end up hurting myself…

If, i could choose?

I would choose to live with people who do not want to hurt me!

 I would want to have my own privacy!

 I would want to live a healthy and safe life!

I would want to be "loved" and i would "love" back 3 times more!

But that would be only if, i could choose...