Nothing for me here

There are important things i want to do, but i don't have a person to help me, in fact my family is almost completely gone, and i have no friends anywhere, being alone is the best i can do now, because everyone around me is dead inside. I've never been so close to knowing why i'm here, how i came here, when i came here, what i am, and where i am, yet i still don't know how to escape this world and never come back. I am alone everywhere i am, because no one else understands why they are here. People are infected with slavery, they are not my kind. This world is filled with evil, it needs another flood. There's nothing for me here, i simply am still alive. I want to go away, and never come back.

Day of the Week and its Planet - 4 - Wednesday - Mercury

"I truly care and i try hard, but Life always ends up making me realize i am cursed to be alone forever, because if i don't initiate a conversation then not even one person ever talks to me or remembers me, and i always end up being forgotten or abandoned once i stop giving attention, so i feel no joy in being alive, no happiness, no good feelings, receive nothing good from anyone, can't even accept them anymore, have no will to try again, don't know what to do anymore, all i keep seeing in my future is a slow, miserable, and painful death, which i never wanted, and what did i do to deserve it?"

 

 

 

I need Love too!

"Humm... i adore the warmth of your body!"

I need constant communication.
I want to be with someone all the time.
I want to know that someone is listening to me.
Being ignored hurts so bad.

I don't want to be alone anymore!

I want to be together, feel her warmth, eat with her, cuddle, hug, hold hands, kiss, fall asleep next to her, and all those things i never had, and still don't even understand what it is or how it feels like!
It hurts that no one has time for me, and i always have time, and yet, i always end up being alone.
I get sad.
So sad...
I want someone to be with me as much as possible.
Alone, all i feel is pain, and i always end up hurting myself…

If, i could choose?

I would choose to live with people who do not want to hurt me!

 I would want to have my own privacy!

 I would want to live a healthy and safe life!

I would want to be "loved" and i would "love" back 3 times more!

But that would be only if, i could choose...